Me and My Shadow
© David Moorhead — March 2005
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There
are so many lovely things to think about, look at, smell scents of – so
many ideas – my fingers can hardly type fast enough. What exactly is the
theme, here? What to talk about... I'm in a pickle here... Hmmm, let's see...
Okay, here is a good topic. The message will be about what is distracting you.
Think again, David. It might be you who are distracted, not the readers.
But …
David, keep on writing. Soon, your breathing will ease, and your thoughts,
let’s call them little nothings, will flow again into somethings. Me?
I am a nudge, an irresistible talking shadow.
All right, so you are. But, my intention is to draft this article, edit and
re-edit it, get it mailed on time … readers expect …
David, keep on typing. Little inkles are sure to come your way with what
readers are poised to hear you say.
I sit right here, stumbling fingertips wandering on the keyboard; as always,
I am looking through a big, living room window into still another chilly gray,
rainy Saturday. Wintry trees sport naked branches appearing as bony limbs dribbling
drizzle.
My mind has absorbed every bit of exciting and deep literature that has come
my way. Reading, rereading, comprehending, moving on to the next; meeting writers,
poets; reading poems and superb journalism. Now that I want to write real well
… The correct word is good, David … Now that I want to
write real good, suddenly baskets brimming awesome ideas and stories is too
much. Ahem, David, the correct verb is … are.
Okay. Now that I want to write really good, suddenly buckets brimming awesome
ideas and stories are too much. My brain must be dribbling drizzle.
Maybe I’ll toss a penny in the air, watch whether it lands heads or tails,
and choose the idea the upside draws. But, that means I would have already chosen
ideas either side would entail. Now what?
Don’t go looking for a penny, David. Keep on typing, and keep your
eyes off caller id.
What’s going on? Is this article's possibility really bigger, more fascinatingly
mind-boggling than ever I imagined?
I am waiting. I’m… yes, I’m typing away, waiting for something
… David, so are your readers … an idea readers want to
hear that is insightful, that makes eternal light bulbs of profound insight
light up like flood lamps switched on inside their closets.
Okay, that’s it. No idea, no theme, no possibility is showing up. I’ll
be seeing you ‘round. I’m heading outside to watch squirrels, catch
a snake, see cardinals dart, contemplate purplish water beetles – whatever.
And, maybe eat a glazed doughnut. See yah, bye.
David, where the heck are you headed in such a whimsical heat? Collect
some courage. Get right back over here and have yourself a warmed over seat.
Here it is. You, dear reader, and I are shifting. What I mean is we Earthlings
cannot help but observe levels of shifts around us, and we without doubt help
them along. Every day, we awaken to an entire planet abundant with changes that
happened while we were sleeping. Governments constantly shift their points of
view as other countries quickly uproot theirs. On top of that, remember the
rambunctious chain of events from Mizz Mother Nature, too. This is good,
David.
Shifting creates, well … shifts manifest annoyance within nations whose
citizens, with their worthy animals, would rather live in peace. We may thank
the international plutocrats who distract goodness with thrusts of corporate
pandemonium … David, look inside … You and I tend to hoard
thoughts of pending global upsets and ecological threats rather than imagine
some truly whopping, nearly conceivable possibilities for us and for the rest
of the animal kingdom. David, now where are you headed?
Grasp, for even a moment, the likelihood of Earthlings being part of a fantastic,
emerging genesis. Relax into thoughts of everybody one with each other - yet
empathetically, expressively autonomous.
Hold on to that feeling … Perhaps, we have been what nature intended
but were unwittingly distracted: Are we not an exquisite array of discerning
creations who elaborately accomplished some purpose? David, excuse me, what
did you say? What are you thinking?
Here it is, I see the target... Earthlings are part of a grand wee trace upon
a single universe's breath. Release business and money and family expectations,
and allow yourself to be flabbergasted. We are, right now, at this very moment,
a most astoundingly elegant part of something so out of sight - all of us should
be gawking, audaciously rejoicing for revelations of unfathomed insight.
The truth be spoken, I feel relieved by sensing the breathtaking, evolving
changes in which I will knowingly participate. I would rather the fiery hardship
already done; to resume in a state where no calendars exist, and no one would
ever be late!
This piece is complete, which might not have happened but for a shadow's review
while it browsed for feedback from a friendly, purplish water beetle.
Our constant curiosity
is key
to watching what’s being created.
~ David Moorhead |